It’s About the Light

Wish Me Into the Light

I often find myself searching into the darkness (the shadow) of myself for healing.  Many of my dolls have been created while I focused on fear, anger, grief.  Several years ago I coached a female teenage artist who was living with a brain tumor.  She was an amazing artist and I helped her to put together a show of her work at her alternative high school.  She lived with two parents struggling with addictions and she worked at a local fast food chain; bringing in money to support her “family”.  Several months after I met her I was told that she passed on from the tumor.  I made a doll to deal with my feelings.  After I made the doll I journaled with the image and wrote this message with my non-dominant hand (see this for explanation…. “My life has been a carnival ride, now wish me into the light.”  I felt as if the young artist was speaking to me and directing me to to let her go into the light.   As you can see the doll’s costume is very earthy, in fact her structure is made of tree branches, as well as her fingers and toes.  The doll she holds and extends forward is faceless; her body a loose form of a body wrapped in purple and gold with a beaded headdress.  The creation of this doll and her image served me well in letting the young girl go in peace and love, and later on when my father passed away the same message showed up in my journal and brought me great comfort.

 In the past year I’ve been reinventing several dolls.  The image, metaphor, symbol of their meaning had done it’s work and I wanted to transform it into the next offering.  I took apart Wish Me Into the Light and placed all the body parts on my sewing table.  I looked through my fabric collection for colors that spoke to me and seemed to speak to each other.  I created a new face and put the doll together, changing the position of the arms.  I made her a hat, painted the face to work with the colors used in the design of her and put the hat on.  I liked her but something seemed missing. I looked through my box of miscellaneous items and found a perfect pin to put on the hat.  The pin seemed the crowning…she was complete.

Often, after completing a doll, I hang her on the wall, as this one, or stand on a table and spend time with her.  Looking at the design, colors, shapes I get my journal out and dialogue with her.  I noticed that she too wears a earthly gown suggesting a tree or a plant, only the colors suggest spring or summer…a growing season.  The pin on her hat looks like a light that a miner wears to go into the earth to find treasures.  I write, ” You are entering a growing season, and like any well nurtured plant you will grow toward the light.”  “Why the brilliant shiny gem on the pin?” I ask.  “To show you the way out of the darkness…..” she says. I pause, somewhat stunned by the beauty of the affirmation and then I notice both dolls were about light, both made by my physical hand, and yet I feel as if they were guided by a hand greater than my own.

Growing Toward the Light


Group Healing and Epiphany

Waiting to Embody Our Voices

Doll heads waiting for their bodies and an epiphany in my studio. January 6, 2012 seemed a good time to celebrate the Epiphany- the celebration of the revelation of the divine in human form and a good time to begin adding my voice to creative healing process community.

Twelve years ago I wrote a healing dollmaking curriculum called The Dollmaking Circle.  The curriculum transformed into a healing doll curriculum, class and online group called Medicine Dolls.  The present online group has been ongoing for over five years.  
There is power in creating in group. Each member of the group brings different life experiences and wisdom that, when shared, form a more powerful healing energy field. When one of us share an experience, insight, struggle, ….the birth of a new doll and her awakening…. it affects all of us.  I like what Robert Burney shares in his book Codependence: The Dance of Wounded Souls;
“A single soul’s healing advances the healing of all souls. The effects of group healing and awakening ripple out through human consciousness to affect all Souls.”
January 6- in the Christian tradition, Epiphany- the celebration of the revelation of the divine in human form. Epiphanies are awakenings, deep insights that come from that which is both what we are & yet larger than ourselves. They are the moments when we wake up to something that reveals the Sacred Wholeness, the essence, the meaning that has eluded us. A good day to be open to seeing what we have not seen before, to open to & give thanks for moments of awakening. Epiphanies are revealations, moments in our lives of which we can say: “After that, everything was changed,”- because our way of seeing was widened & deepened forever.
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